As-salamu alaykum...this is my first post to the CTTLA fans. I have so much to share about myself, my life, and my journey. I just got back from the studio working on my album. I had so much on my mind, thinking about what I am really doing on this earth? Am I doing what I'm supposed to be doing, or am I really achieving my dreams that could go away the next day? I'm under a lot of pressure at this moment. I've been so stressed with management, my dating life and my family. Speaking of family, My mother and I constantly butt-head everyday when we get the chance to be around each other. It is another reason why I had a tremendously weight gain few years ago. She plays the favoritism card with my other half brothers which are 2 and 8. I feel so alone in the world, I have a mother who constanly battle with me, say hurtful words about my past, my lifestyle. On good days, we can have a good converstation and laugh. But On bad days, she really can hit below the belt. Calling me a ho, bitch, faggot and other words I couldn't say in this blog. This is why I'm so cold-hearted, I do not cry. I don't have lots of emotion in my heart. I have a care-free attitude, but when you really hit below the belt. I'm gonna become karma and beat your ass. I'm a bitch who can really be positive, but when you get negative with me. I'm going to become Peaches, Peaches is the bitch you do not want to fuck with. On another note, my dating life is kinda crazy, chaos yet secretive. I am dating an very successful millionaire which I can't mention his name, he is in the public light. I feel so stressed from it because I feel like a secret to him. We have a open relationship which I'm leery with. But it's also fun, I also see other guys that don't care about being exposed in the community. The guys who I see on the side are more "I don't care about fame" thing, which makes me feel like secure. Because number 1, I have longevity of being a celebrity. Number 2, I don't want anyone to use me to gain anything in life. I feel like I'm going to break out and dump my millionaire hubby any day. And be fucking free like I usually am. I'm gonna stop writing this and bottle all of my emotions for now and write to you more later about my journey. It's your bitch, Peaches. Ela Al Lekaa.

-Peaches

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